Between U'r present and lack of U'r presence "

I never asked to be feeling like this .....
I never asked for a situation like this .....
I was between being and nothing .....
I'm stuck between the presence and absence ....
At the same time .... I don't feel his presence .....
At the time I was in the void,,,, I feel the presence ....
And I was in between nonexistence .....
And absence came because his absence .....
I was there when it wasn't her presence .....
and among my emptiness there is always a presence ....
Thank U for always there in my emptiness .....